Favor

X: Then what are you planning to? Do you want to settle in Surabaya after 5 year living in Bandung?

Y: If you ask me that question, of course my answer will be "No". I clearly know Surabaya is better, everything are more organized than Bandung. But something left in that small town which is hard to explain. Yeah, maybe because there was the first time moment I became ME. I can live in my own way, although I still depend on my financial to my parents. That's my principle, as strong as I can, I want to widen my comfort zone. Apart from those reasons, I realized that people can not enforce what they want without God's permission. Expecting too much will lead us back to conservative thought and our life will always feel sparseness, hatred and I don't like it. My age is too short to be filled such that taste. Imho, a whole-hearted person for every God's giving is the most suitable method to fill up the rest of our days. 

We've received a lot of miracles from God every day; remember our breath, the limitless memories, a very kind family, parents, friends, even as simple as a peaceful milieu during our sleep and wake up. So which of the favors of your Lord would you deny?

Cheers! -yy-

notes: I am not the religious people, but surely I am the seeker of life's happiness and graces.

Passion

Let me tell you, I just graduated from college  as a bachelor. Yippie ~ 

I am happy but I am also not. 

Feeling not happy doesn't mean I am not thankful to the Mighty, does it?

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Just like my departure in few days later, I'm terribly happy. In the other side I'm shocking too face the fact that I must leave Bandung soon. My heart was broken that night. For some reason, I can't tell, going back home to Surabaya before the the flight day is the best decision. 

If I could arrange some word about Bandung, it will be: a special town. Bandung changed me a lot about how to live on, gave me the purity of life science, let my heart in some love stories, blessed me with a warmth friendship, and introduced to my passion. 

You'll always have some neurons in my brain, Bandung :)

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You know, passion can not be fooled. It grows in your body secretly and stronger by the time, without permission. Plantation and conservation is my passion. I really really want to build  my own botanical garden which is fit for Indonesia's plants and there's a 'little climatron' to keep some subtropic species. Soon, this botanical garden will open an education program to public. Before that, I will make people love the plants to urban farming. Plants in their house can help almost all daily needs, especially food. When everyone start to love plants, maybe the destruction of remaining forest will be decreased because they realized the use of plant as the key species in life chain. Such a naive idea,s ikr. But I am the happiest woman if I can make that true :') 

Those things keep calling me where ever I walked. But sadly I can't prove to my parents, even to my self, that my passions are capable to support my life. In the future, I want to show my junior the beauty of Earth through plants. So that they can be the ones who always protect Earth from the human greed disaster. I feel so pain every time I see the news or watch live that too much natural resources are taken and abused by human, my kin. 

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Hahahaha a lot of uncertain things after I passed the college life. Meanwhile I'm the typical woman who doesn't like uncertainty. One thing that I'm sure, God will show me the way to my goal as long as it's a good goal. 

Cheers! yy 

I DO NOT KNOW.

Good night, readers! Today is Wednesday, July 20th 2016....... it's 14 day before my depart day. Where am I going? UK, for two months.

When I said that to other people, they'll response, "Cool ! What are you doing there? Continue your study?" then I'll whisper the "Aamiin" silently. I really do want to continue my study in this most wealthy country on Earth, but I pull back my mind because some bad issues are happening there now.

Okay, focus on the first question and this is my answer: I don't know, really. Do I stupid? Maybe. Hahahahaaa

My dad version: Ria have vacation to UK because she can meet some proffesors who will promote her in master program. (Probably, Dad. imho the chance about that is too little)

My sister version: Just enjoy your vacation, so that you can refresh your mind and get better when arrived Indonesia.

My brother version: Both of them are right.

Me: Lalalalala well, I prefer to the 2nd opinion but I do want to suceed the 1st one. Let's find the win-win solution........I am offering myself to be a volunteer in one of UK botanical garden. wkwkwk there is still no response from them until now though. Please answer my email dear Mr/Mrs admin *begging*

So, what am I doing in UK then? A journey without purpose will be boring, I know it.

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After I think again, I have a decision. This is the reason I have to gto to UK: helping my sister to take care of her children and be followed by some good faiths. Aamiin. I believe a good starting will be great in the end.