Here we go again, just a few days left before 2022.
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This year isn't that different from 2020. Mr. C still hanging around, reducing Earth's population, and innovating themself to be stronger day by day. I might say it was thrilling but full of hope at the same time. In early 2021, humans invented stable vaccines and antiviruses to fight the pandemic. I can't be happier after hearing that news! Immediately, the vaccine was distributed all over the world, restricted almost all public activity, kept up the random C-19 testing, established new rules about remote work or study, the government from every country has done its best to save their people. Even some countries did a local lockdown in certain cities to hold back the spread of viruses. I thought, with those new regulations and cure everything is going to get better. In fact, the virus mutation has been much faster than expected.
A new variant was coming, humans were not fully armored, and we got 2nd wave attack. I remembered it was months full of sad news. Every morning there were always announcements about dead people, Ambulance sirens back and forth, even every day in my WhatsApp there was always condolence saying, the demand for oxygen tubes was highly increasing, fighting each other for convalescent plasma........really it's heartbreaking. I feel bad for my friends or my family who lost their loved ones. Deeply sorry I can't do a lot but pray because this disease was different than ever. Once you get Mr. C, you're not supposed to meet another human, or else you can harm them because they might have other health issues that can be worse when Mr. C comes into their body. That is why every Mr. C sufferer has to take care themself until he/she is healthy. Even health is not enough, they have to prove it with a negative result of PCR test. W h a t a w o r l d .... I know!
Everyone was stressed, for sure. If it's me, this condition makes me fear the crowd until now. I also feel uncomfortable staying long inside a public building. I just can't get off the thought that the virus still exists, and the chance to get infected is still 50:50. Even if I have to go out of town, I prefer a private vehicle instead of public transportation. I know it will be exhausting to drive a hundred kilometers away, but at least I can keep my circle safe, so I can guarantee my health too when I back home. It will be a bit different if I have to travel outside Java. I barely slept a night before the flight because lot of bad thoughts come and go. Every time I go to the airport, it feels like I'm crossing a deep chasm with a rope, one misstep then it's over.
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With the existence of Mr.C, I realized that I can't do like this all the time, pitying myself or someone else, waiting for miracles to happen so maybe we can go back to 2019, complaining of life that has been paused because of the pandemic, and bla bla bla. I felt not right to be a victim all the time, so I did a deep thought for a while, "What do I really want? What am I going to be in the future? Do I have any legacy to be inherited if I died?" The answer is, I'm zero and doom. Alright, here's my big decisions this year:
1. I take a master degree in management at Ciputra University,
2. I choose to join Apple Developer Academy instead of staying in my current job, that's why...
3. I resign from my job in the seafood processing plant.
I know it seems totally crazy, take a master's program that is different from my bachelor's program, join an academy that I barely know the core knowledge, and let go of a stable job after all 3 years of service. But I'm fxcking did it!
About a master's program. I did think about it since 2016, right after my graduation. Growing up as a scientist, who doesn't want to continue their study, especially with a scholarship? But for some reason, I put off that ambition and became a job seeker. After almost two years didn't get a real job, I started to build my own business from a hobby, philately. I run a franchise business of Pos Indonesia, a courier expedition sector. At first, I was doubt doing it because too far from my educational background. But I need to earn money to pay my daily needs, there is no choice then. Besides the business seems promising in this digital era. Day by day, month by month, getting on as an entrepreneur is challenging yet exciting. I feel like finding another potential inside me has been woken up after a long sleep. "Why don't I try to have a serious study about management and entrepreneur then?", this question suddenly came up in my brain. Long short story, all my family support me, and based on the calculation, my financial condition is enough to pay all tuition fees until graduation. The other reason for taking graduate study was because of my sister's advice. She said that there is no need to worry while we invest money for higher education, it will be used for life. On the other hand, if we invest in physical goods like houses, land, motors, or cars, they can be damaged by time. Last but not least, the reason I take this study is that I want to manage my own farm properly. Yeah, the living plant worlds have been my obsession since high school and I want to build my dream farm come true!
The next highlight is joining Apple Academy. It's a huge decision, yes it really is! To be honest, right now, my heart is still pounding every time I read that happy announcement. What makes me interested in this program is the experience and the digital knowledge that might be useful in the future, you know everything is going with apps nowadays. The dependency of humans on cellphones or internet connections is increasing, even becoming a primary need. Then everyone likes browsing anything they are curious about to google, play store, app store, safari, Instagram, Tiktok, etc. After that for payment in online or offline stores, the recent generation (millennials and Z) always ask if there is any cashless method they can use. They don't bring any notes anymore because all the money has been saved in some electronic wallets! I know this transition age is confusing, but here we are, adapting to a whole new era or will be lost by time. Speaking of goals in this program, hopefully, I can develop my self-potentials in a modern way so the product will be long last through many generations.
I realized that this life is about choices. 24 hours and 7 days, I always face a crossroads to decide. Let's say in the morning when I wake up, open my eyes, God let me choose, "do you want to go back to sleep or move your ass out and meet the sun?" after that, the choices haven't finished. "do you want to have a light breakfast, heavy one, or have nothing at all due to the diet?", and this game keeps running as long as I'm alive. But, there is a special crossroad for a special occasion like this. Joining apple academy means I have to commit my 8-12 am from Monday to Friday, then how about my job in seafood plants? Simply, I let it go. There were wars inside my brains to decide this. Well, my current job is actually quite stable, 9 to 5 or sometimes dawn to dawn, traveling out of town a lot, routine salary. Meanwhile, Apple Academy is a kind of internship, so what do I expect about the money? Well, I guess it's back to what I'm chasing for. The point is, I have dreams but not in these processing facilities. Its fundamental work here is totally opposite to my principle even damaging me, so I can't take it longer. Yeah, think it's enough for excusing "I'm okay or I can deal with it" for three years.
So, that it is, a little wrap-up of my 2021! Seems like the complexity is getting more intense, doesn't it?
"Aal iz well, I'll be okay, and I'm stronger than ever, each day." are my favorite mantra by the way.
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While people are choosing a stable workplace, in my 27 y.o, I choose the roller coaster one.
I dare myself to learn a lot of new things, broaden my expert zone, and pursue my ideal dreams by combining them with new experiences.
I'm not that Ria who loves the peacefulness or all safety zone stuff anymore.
I'm Ria whose expert in living uncomfortably and solving the problem is my daily meals
xoxo
Happy New Year 2022
