Good afternoon, silent reader.
Been a long time I haven't written this pages.
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I thought, last year was the most beautiful year I passed by, I mean it. I reached everything I want in a year, imagine it in a year. I know right, what a blast. If I could describe it in a mathematics curve, it would be like I was in the top of my life. As the time keep tickling, I have to move forward and it is looked like going down hill to the slope of a curve.
I felt so comfortable at the top, when I was a volunteer in Scotland botanic garden. My precious two months, everything was so peaceful. I live in my ideal live, surrounded by beautiful flowers and no one judged me down. I was warmly appreciated by the Scottish. Highest gratitude as a foreigner in that country, you have such a beautiful cities and admirable people. That's funny I often got confuse when they started talking with their accent and now I really miss them so much.
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Did I depressed?
I think so, maybe little bit shocked. That's why I'm writing now. Some people say it can help me to reduce the effect.
Sounds evil to feel sad when I fly back home, Indonesia. Can I say, I'm not that save in my own home country ? Facing a lot of social problems in here is seriously frustrating. You got to have a strong mental and ears to stay in here for long time.
Dear Indonesia, you really are a beautiful country. But the people who living in are so......dull. Sorry for not having any better word. Let me ask then, What do you call if you live in a multicultural country but the minority ethnic must be nailed by the majority? What do you call if you were judged, even insulted, by the clothes you were wearing? What do you call if the success people can be measured by how much the balance in their bank saldo? What do you call if every one just think about their own businesses and none of them are ecologically sustainable? "Kill me" That's the first expression strolling in my brain every time I recall those questions.
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Bekasi, 13th of March 2017. I'm hoping to changed this paradigm, soon. Aamiin.
